today

Collapsed today.
Among a pile of pillows
for half an afternoon
my future slipping away
or slipped away and noticed.

Collapsed today.
So much sound
it is always the volume
that astounds me
and then my face unrecognisable.

Collapsed today.
House empty like
bullet shells or an
avocado skin. I think
I should eat but only manage chocolate.

Collapsed today.
Between my reading emails and
emitting shock waves
all around. It has hailed.
They say the world might be ending.

Collapsed today.
G20 mafia is in town.
People planning carefully the
destruction of everything but with
immensely profitable side-effects for some.
 
Collapsed today.
Couldn’t really call anyone.
Couldn’t believe anyone would
want to hear or wouldn’t
make the shame worse.

Collapsed today.
Like old times. My computer
is full of crimes like this
immortalised for anyone to read
in little, digitised black and white lines.

Collapsed today.
Collapsing:
Something whole revealing structure
then revealing adhesive,
revealing components and then
minutiae.